This story began in September of 2012. My husband, Ben, and I found out that we were expecting a baby; we were so excited and nervous and ready all at the same time. We had just celebrated our one-year anniversary and Ben’s 30th birthday. The timing seemed right. A few weeks passed, I experienced what I thought was normal morning sickness, and we were preparing for a visit to the ultrasound machine to see some actual proof of our little baby’s existence.
One day in October changed everything. I woke up in the wee hours one morning and saw blood when I went to the toilet. Ben came to my side and we waited a while before calling my mom and our doctor. The doctor’s office gave me an appointment and my mom arrived immediately with a box of the biggest sanitary pads I’ve ever seen. I’m so thankful that she did, because I bled for a long time thereafter.
At our appointment on that sad day, the doctor discovered something irregular in my uterus. After looking at the ultrasound images and getting results from my blood work, he said he thought I was experiencing something called a Molar Pregnancy. A Molar pregnancy is rare, he said. One can diagnose a Molar Pregnancy when a few factors are present, though. When a Molar Pregnancy is happening, he told me the uterus expands at an expedited rate, the Beta HCG hormone is at an extremely elevated level, and there may or may not be a fetus forming in the uterus. If there is a fetus, it will probably not survive. If there is no fetus, there would likely be a cluster of grape-like cysts growing as if they were imitating the fetus. Which is exactly what he saw in my ultrasound photos. I had a cluster of grape-like cysts growing in my uterus instead of a fetus. He noted that my uterus was growing rapidly and that my Beta HCG hormone was way above where it should be: it was at 330,000.
My doctor also mentioned something else: the mole/molar/mass/tumor/cluster part of this pregnancy needs to be removed completely. In some cases, this mole/molar/tumor/cluster can turn into a cancer. He scheduled me for surgery before I could contemplate anything more. Ben and I began looking frantically for answers as to why this happened, what would happen next. We needed to know how to explain such a foreign thing. We still don’t know how to explain it well, so that’s why I’m writing this blog.
Here are two websites from PubMedHealth and WebMD that have been helpful to me:
I promise, you’d rather read these websites than read my attempts at being scientific. But don’t feel like you must read these websites; they are simply an aid to me in explaining the facts.
I was able to find an online support group for women in my shoes, though there aren’t many of us. I’m amazed how much strangers can help strangers! Ben and I have tried to be strong together; we find our strength in God. He is wonderful and good, and He will heal me as we journey on. We have been blessed by Him through our amazing family, our supportive friends, and really compassionate medical personnel.
I hope you will enjoy reading about what has happened since that day at the doctor’s office in October 2012. A lot has happened. Our lives have changed…for the better.